Relationship with my self

Balance of being visible to others Unseen to myself

The imbalance of being seen by others whilst staying unseen to myself…

I am filling my own space… in the recent past I would easily give up my space without questioning… It was hard to receive compliments and feel them land in me... I would give space for other peoples needs and mostly not even check in with my own needs wishes... ( leaving me to feel alone, unimportant, not cared for etc...)
This internal sensation of allowing my inner space to be seen was uncomfortable. And I have longed for a change in this for a long time...

I started to connect with my yes... know what my yes is about... Yay!! (this began at the retreat i was supporting with my presence and mahi in golden bay earlier this year... with Sybille Biedert, at embodied intimacy.
I became more and more aware and noticed  how I kept falling into the same behaviour...)

Integration time and my commitment to really show up for myself... feel and explore my own needs meant I became visible to my self....
Through my weekly meditation group Attuned to Life, (where I am a participant and facilitator)  I was able to  really let this land....
I am now free of the forever questioning my own expression and truth , free of  taking responsibility for other people first… and...free from the fear of judgement on how I approach things as  I know everything I do comes from Love and care  moving from truth and honesty. 
Today As I look into my reflection
I       f e e l     a    new woman
I      s e e                  a      new woman…
I see me, I feel me,
I am here… embodied  loving my self

I feel my visibility has been appreciated by you who share time and spaces with me....
Your reflections are landing… The  S H I F T  is, I take responsibility for how I feel. I value myself, I check in with me, my yes ~ my no ~ my maybe.
I stay deeply considerate, loving, present and caring deeply, always...
Before I decide/ before I commit, I check in if what is in front of me is aligned with my current being state, my values my beliefs…  

Celebrating this 🤍🔥  

The journey of self growth never ends aye! students for life!,
Grateful to be surrounded by the right people in the right times for all these lessons to unfold… unravel…

The spring equinox represents the point at which day and night are equal length and the time from which days will finally start to grow longer than the nights again, Yay!. It's a time of hope and possibility.

My intention  this Spring...
I wish to bring into the light the act of immersing myself into experiences bringing myself in... and deepening my connection with S I M P L I C I T Y....

I feel nourished and grateful to be able to keep unpacking myself to being free, loving, open, honest, and real in, the joy life can bring in the smallest of moments.

Please feel free to leave a comment Arohanui

 With Love Jooske

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